Frida- paint me into the richness of your earth, your culture, into the soft crevasses of sweet water flowers where the sun cannot reach, but where the dew dares to descend. in the morning light i fall, forever into your core and seep into your roots. set me on your shoulder where your hair rests... or on your breast where your breath lies. then we can pulse together, you and i, as our harmonies weave and we create a rhythm that's ours. we can dance, my dear, until we are dizzy, drunk with love and stars.

so i used to think the "f*** my life" website was hilarious until crap like that started happening to me. well, actually it's still kind of funny- just not when it happens to you...or well me i mean. whatev. i couldn't think of a better time to be home right now. too bad it's 10 hours away.

i'm picking up wireless? huh? that's a little unheard of on the 18th story, but hey- i take what i can get.

so i finally figured out what it feels like to have no class on fridays. i didn't go to my english or history today and i didn't spend the entire day working either. this morning i went on the trip to dallas with the honors program. i loved the museum but the people in the program are a little ick. not all of them, i totally take that back, but most of them act like privileged little... agh. allll one of the girls in the little "clique" was able to talk about was the fact that her father was the guy who worked for the city of dallas, in the black suit and tie (cause lord forbid he actually was a construction WORKER-she made that clear) and ordered the construction workers around becasue they didn't "understand" directions. agh i wanted to rip her head off. on another note nidhu was neat though- i met her on the trip also. she moved here from india when she was 10. she's more my type to hang around. she tried my salsa and avocado/guacamole. all the other girls thought i was nuts. she ate the black beans on her plate at the restaurant, too. none of the other girls ate them- because they were black... not brown. losers. i talked with dr. thompson a lot on the trip as well. that was a relief. she couldn't stand those other girls either. i'm glad to know i wasn't just being pissy. :)

i've had quite an eventful day. went to sociology this morning for a review (test on Thurs). Then I had a meeting with the director of the honors program and wow... i will definitely apply for it asap. that's my next big thing. i can't believe the difference in education you get when you are involved in this program. you travel abroad, have different scholarships you are considered for, classes are smaller, you get to register for classes first, you are guided by mentors (not just staff advisors), you graduate in a different catergory, you are placed into an athenian honor society, you get discounts galore... i mean- the list is endless. it really makes me realize the gap in education. most of the people in the program come from homes where their family went to college and they were probably in the honors program as well. i'm really grateful for my mentor here as well, dr.thompson. she's really helped me out with a lot. i'm not even accepted into the honors program yet and i'm going on a trip to the women's museum with dr.thompson's honors women's studies class on friday. the director of the program is going as well. my ticket, transportation and lunch is paid for already. damn. this is nuts to me. i feel so privileged with a bit of guilt. why can't the rest of TWU be encouraged to succeed as well? i really don't find it fair although i do believe i am entitled to the best education i can possibly get. more later. i found a children's picture book i would just loooooove to blog about some other time. it's a racist little book and i'll have to rant about it sometime :)

so blogger told me i was able to post photos from my phone. not true, although i can send text. so i uploaded those pics to my computer and sent them here. the top two are (obviously) from the vagina monologues. the performance was fantastic. oddly enough it was our first full run through. haha. it's weird to think that a lot of people back home never missed one of my performances and now they're unable to see any of them. and it was really strange to walk off stage and not have family there. a lot of my "net block" show up as well as some of my sigma girls, so i wasn't completely alone or anything. haha or well, i wasn't as alone as i just made it seem. the rest of my sorority is coming tonight. i'm really excited for that as well as the cast party at adrienne's. vagina party! haha. ok so- the next two photos are of t-dub. we've had beautiful weather lately. so coming back from work or class or whatever it was i took these photos on my phone. the next picture is of bahama bucks shaved ice. it's my new boba tea (although i do miss bobas). it's shaved ice but creamy-like. i had cheesecake flavored :)

i feel invincible. really, i feel totally accomplished. i've been so confused in my spanish class and today i finally understood the lesson and how everything works together. oh, how fun! i also spoke to dr. thompson's honors course today about the vagina monologues and they were totally responsive- even when i asked them "if you vagina had a name, what would it be?" haha. it was neat! ah! i can't wait to go to dress rehearsals tonight. i know this is going to be a successful production. so far about 20 of my friends from my sorority and from my living community have RSVPed and payed for tickets and everything. I wish you could be there, mom! you would be so proud- you know... me talking about my vagina freely and all! it really is liberating if i do say so myself. :) that community of women in the production is just what i needed to finally feel at home in denton. all for now; i'm supposed to be doing office hours for senate. 

today was the best day. i learned so much... and to me, nothing can make for a more incredible day. in fact, i've been in such a good mood today that i seem to notice everything. i love the way earphones sound in my head- like tiny people in my head that play a concert just for me. surround sound to the maximum. i've even come to appreciate city-titties! they helped me find my lane while buckets of rain poured out from the pink sheets of clouds. who needs white and yellow lines on the road? :) 

today was just as busy as yesterday and i enjoyed every minute of it. sociology at 9:30 (a class i love becasue i learn sooo soo much!) and then off to work. today i had office hours for senate at lunch but i did get to spend a good portion of lunch with my sigma sisters who i am more comfortable being myself around. wow... it feels so good to not have to pretend i'm something i'm not. (so thank you to my sigmas who attend my protests, believe in my ideas, respect my opinions and support me in my silly and serious adventures...like the vagina monologues!) i finally found an easel to put our big town hall forum posters on for senate. it made me feel relieved to get that up as well as post flyers all around campus. i've been nominated for emerging leader on campus. this also makes me feel very good- knowing that someone appreciates the work i do.  then back to work for awhile where i get this email from my women's studies professor, Dr. Thompson, who was talking to the head of the honors department today about me. we're all having a meeting on tuesday and i'm really excited for it. anywhoo... after work i went to a senate forum and then i was off to rehearsals. i'm getting better at my monologue, paraphrasing less, and get really cool compliments on the way i deliver the piece. people say they've never seen in done the way i do it and they like it. neat. that is always so so god to hear. i'm really excited for the performances. i'm getting more and more comfortable with the piece. after our short rehearsal we went to see the guerilla girls. wow. they are so crafty and direct with their approach to feminism and i love it! did you know that barbie (the doll) started off as a prostitute doll named lili?!? i didn't! wow! then the mattel owners turned her into a doll sold to little girls. crazy, right?! i learned so many neat things from the guerilla girls. talk about some sheroes! well, during the lecture it started storming so much. there was even a tornado warning, it was hailing... the whole bit. it was scary but so much fun! running with my friends in the rain was just the release i needed. this made for a perfectly marvelous day. so, my dear friends and family in new mexico... even though i miss everyone so much sometimes i want to pack everything, drop out of school and drive home... i am having the time of my life here in college. there is no other place but college for me. i wish i could read and learn and take in information as a student for the rest of my life. i love you guys and miss you very much. on to homework.

love, mari.

i figured it was about time i started writing again and since i'm terrible at updating people back home and i thought this might be a great way to do that. it's also a nice "come down" at the end of the day although, i do have to admit that typing a blog reminds me of middle school. so there are comment box things on here if you'd like to post some i suppose. tonight is just gonna be a quick blog since it's passed midnight already here and i have other obligations that i'm currently procrastinating. i just thought i'd get this up and running. 

the semester is off to a good start. a busy one, but good! i have super-high expectations for myself and i do have to admit i'm making myself a little nervous with them. my expectations are a good challenge and totally worth striving for, but in the event that i do not make one of my goals, i hope i do not upset myself too much. today was hectic. my classes (history and english) started at 8am (as they do every MWF) and ended at 10. then i worked (at my job in the library) until lunch, waited in the loooong loooong lunch lines in the garden room, and went to class again (español) at 1. then i got out of class and went back to work until 4. at 4:15 i had an executive board meeting, then a senate meeting at 5:15. from there i went to my sorority meeting and the the chair meeting afterward. ahhh! crazyness! by that time all the food places on campus are closed so i ate with my sorority sisters.... but now i smell like onions. thank you, mexican food and sorry to my roommate alex (who has already approached me about my potent onion smell!) haha. tomorrow we have a quick rehearsal for the vagina monologues and then we are going to watch the guerilla girls give a lecture. if you don't know who they are.. google them. that are SO awesome! thank you UNT women's studies department! speaking of.... my major is officially changed to sociology with a minor in women's studies. go me. 

this week as a whole is a busy one. rehearsals for the rest of the week till 10pm with performances on friday and saturday. i get to speak in a women's studies class this week which i'm really excited about and i'm also going to be featured in the women's studies promo video. woop woop! i'm thinking about running for SGA next year (student government assn) but i'm in a bit of a bind. i really want to do the FMLA meetings next year (aka the feminist club at UNT) but senate meets on the same days. the only way i can think of getting around this is by running for SGA (who doesn't meet at the same time FMLA does) and not running for senate. with SGA comes more responsibility and more time put into it though. i have a dang busy schedule now, so i'm not sure if i want to do the SGA thaang. 

more later. i think i can send pictures from my camera phone straight to this blog. i'm gonna try it tomorrow and see if i can kind of capture my day in pictures. we'll see... hope you enjoyed. if anyone, at least i know my mother did! :)  all for now.